All Apologies

For various reasons I've been slacking about keeping my blog up to date, and it's generally just because I've been busy doing all the stuff that's not fit to write about.

As a brief update, I put down my love of 9 years on February 8, 2010 - my beloved cat, Onye. She was suffering from liver failure, and as much as I wanted to justify dishing out the $1000+ it would take to stabilize her, I realized it was a selfish move on my part to prolong her anguish to serve my own companionship needs. The past month has proven to be especially difficult in regards to me emotions, but I feel like I see light on the other end of the tunnel.

On a plus note, I met a wonderful man who has been a great support system through the loss of my constant companion, as well as much of the work anguish I've been dealing with. It's also helpful that he's employed by the same company as me, so all the stories about "my day at the office" don't involve the anonymous, faceless subjects that they usually do.

I'm also happy to say I've switched departments and hope that despite the cut in hours, it does more to improve my attitude towards waking up every morning and making the trek to work. I wouldn't be lying if I said it hadn't been turning into a daily struggle, and the days that I did make it in were usually full of frustrations and headaches which was demotivating me more daily.

I do also have to make an effort at censoring more things about what I write here, because I have again had a reminder that people often take things more seriously than they should. While I view my blog as an outlet for my thoughts and a way of keeping in touch with those I (unfortunately) don't get to talk to enough, many people seem to view it as a way to keep tabs on me. It's unfortunate when things come to that, but I guess in a public forum you can't complain when people read what you write.

I promise to think of something more entertaining to talk about next time, but long-term readers know my patterns, and those are the people I care about.